Bittersweet

Ofcourse there's a time I'll be defeated by feelings. And, it happening right now. I miss him. I just cant get rid of the feeling right away. Yeah, maybe for all this while I stand for my ego and hatred toward him but deep in my heart the love still exist.

The moment I start to love him is the most wonderful feeling that I ever had towards a guy. The first met with him is the moment I was closed to him. The night I confess my feelings towards him is the most memorable night for me. That time, I was so happy and it was unbelieveable.

The moment when he start to create distance between us, it's disappointed me much but I dont want gave up easily. Because I love him and I wont give up to be happy.  Then, day by day, chatting with him is a drug for me. Till then our relationship cant tell by words. It only can be felt. As I said before, sometimes I can feel his love, but sometimes I really dont.

There's one fine night when he tell me that he want me, he loves me and seems like he need me. Hardly to believe but then I decided to believe it. And because of that, Im hurt.

Yes. I give my heart to him. I give my love to him. I promise to be always by his side no matter what happen. I promise always to be with him eventhough hundreds people stay away from him. But what did he gave to me ? He gave me hope. YES. HOPES. It was the worst feeling when a person gave us hopes without commitment.

Have you ever felt yesterday someone treat you as their special one but then today they treat you like you are nothing ? Its hurt right ? Yeah, thats what I felt. And I dont see any logic reason for me to stay. If I stay, then I'll hurt deeper. If I go, I'll hurt too but its worth.

So, think wisely if you want to wait for someone. Make sure he/she worth for it. If not, just go and leave it.

ManisaMong

Motivated Thought 2

Since birth, everyone get the best from their parent. When people get older, people in and out from life. That's normal. Just think like this, 'get less then get lost'.

We might not a princess or a prince but for sure we deserve to get the best because God had planned everything for us.

Just dont stand for someone that didnt appreciate us but hold tight onto someone who never let us feel useless.

Sometimes we just need to stop doing some efforts, just relax and see what happen

ManisaMong

Motivated Thought

'Get less then get lost'

God always prepared the best for us. God gives us the best parent in the world. The best friends in the qorld either so we deserve the best partner either. If we get less from someone then they should get lost from us because we deserve the best.

If God says NO, it means YES things that are better. So, why should we still stand for things that hurt us ? We closed the old door to open the new door. But how would we realize about the new door if we still looking backward for the old door ?

Step up, move on, live and stay strong everybody. Life is not about to make others to love us. But life is about imperfections completing each others.

ManisaMong

The Last Hurt From You

If someone hurt you for the second time, then you should leave it and move on.
That's what I gonna do
I only got two choice whether to take it or leave it.
I choose to leave it.
I had hurt because of you for the first time and you hurt be again for the second time. And I swear this is the last hurt from you.

We may not always get what we want, but at the end we always get the best
We may not understand God's plan, but just put faith on God and He'll ease everything for us.
Just sit, relax and nothing to worry because God really works for us. All thing that we need to do is give all our tears, sorrow and sadness to God. Believe that everything's gonna be fine.

Never get phobia to love. Because when we love, we always win. Even if we hurt, but love leave us with a stronger heart.

And lastly, everything happen for a reason. Each person in our life have their own duty to create our personality, emotion and mental. For those who stay, congratulation and thank you for everything. For those who go away, get lost and thank you for the lesson.

ManisaMong

Who am I compare to her

Who am I compare to her
She's so beautiful
She's got man ideal body
She's physically perfect
She's loyal to you
She's been there for you longer than me
I know that she loves you very much
And I guess you love her too 
Then, who am I compare to her
Im nobody
I got nothing special compare to her
Im full of weaknesses
She's got everything but I got nothing
And I think she got your love but I didn't
That was the saddest part

Ask me what I want from you
And I'll answer, I want you
But, it's impossible
Cause you already have her in your life for long time ago
She's suit and perfect with you

And now I just hope for one thing
Please be happy
Please don't hurt
Please don't be sad
Because that hurts me for seeing you hurt

I do love you . Really love you .

ManisaMong

Again

When we got the feeling that everything's change
we can't describe how it is
But for sure, pain exist
The pain lead the tears to drop meanwhile we're trying hardly to avoid the tears
When someone is something to us but we're just nothing to someone
It's a deep pain

One day
If I stop, it is because of you
It is because of me
I just feel like my presence in your life is a burdened
I can feel Im nothing to you because there's someone in your heart
Seriously, Im just tired of being chasing something that always change . Im tired of being ignored . Im tired to love and at the end I get the pain
Im going away and you even dont care about it
Its true that people change as the time change . Only memories unchanged

ManisaMong

Stranger's eye contact

Do you believe love at first sight ?

Yes, I do . If it is about love, nothing is impossible . Anyone and everyone fall in love by many ways. So, no doubt.

I don't know what happened yesterday is love at first sight or not. I think it's not because I've already fall in fall with other people.

But, one think that I know, I can't stop myself from staring his eyes . Yeah, he was a stranger der . But, he's eyes really got something. If Im not mistaken, we've been staring at each other maybe more than 7 seconds.

He's just a stranger but my mind keep remembering me about his eyes.

AMP
ManisaMong

Suddenly

Suddenly I think everything make sense
Why do I feel like that ?
Because we are still new to each other
No wonder why it's hard to feel love between each other
And maybe it was my fault either because everything happens was too early
I didnt think about anything except about feeling
I didnt think about the future, heartbroken
Yeah, times maybe doesnt matter in a relationship but times show everything

So now, I just need to relax and let God works for my life .
For sure, we dont always get what we want but the end we always get the best

ManisaMong

I dont know

I just dont know what happened to you
You're just weird
Actually, what do you want ?
Last time I asked what do you want, then you answered you want me
But as what I see
Your word doesnt match with your action
Just tell me the truth then, what do you want ?
I just dont know and dont get it
What happened actually ?
What's in your weird mind ?
Why cant you just be like the moment you want me ?
Sometimes I can feel your love, but sometimes I dont
Knowing you makes me feel happy for loving you
Loving you makes me wondering what's actually in your heart
Thinking about you makes my mind full of question that only you know what's in your feeling

I hope one day I will know it dear

ManisaMong

I Thought

I thought it was over
But yeah,it wasn't

I had learned a lesson
Not to expect too much
Not to hoping too much
Just follow the flow
And relax
Just act like friend
As long as we know what's in the heart
Never fly too high so that it wont hurt a lot when falling down to the ground
because I believe
If it is meant to be, it will be

And if our destiny has been written being together with each other, we'll travelling over the world together . We'll do everything together and it's just about us, just both of us

Love❤
ManisaMong